While on silent retreat at a beautiful woodsy and rustic area called Dayspring, I learned of a technique to focus my thoughts and unlock my feelings. Writing Haiku. These short sometime pithy sayings gave me the words to dig deep or lightly skin the surface without the clutter of too many words. So begins my quest to capture my musings, feelings, and my imagination in 100 Haikus. These are not profound or come from any place of great intellect, rather from the unpacking of my heart. Join me.
These are the Haikus I wrote to begin this journey.
In this Solitude
God with me and I with God
Holy Communion
(just getting my feet wet....)
We started the meditation with a song. I love the blending of voices. Each very unique yet they come together and create 1 sound. I think the blending of voices are one of God's miracles!
The Kingdom of God is
Blended Voices raised in song
Pure sweet harmony
Solitude of trees
Deep roots high soaring branches,
God's dwelling in me
Winter's morning sky
Bright the sunshines healing rays
Warms my wounded heart
While sitting on a bench in a bevy of trees the quite morning snow presented a great space for reflection. Lingering on the bench I noticed a couple of crows cawing loudly and chasing each other through the high branches of the trees. I wished them away but then I stopped and invited them into my experience of silence. I just marvel at thier boldness.
Loudly the crow caws,
Boldly taking upward flight
Owning its life gift.
Snow blankets the earth,
Dormant life. Quiet waiting.
Healing balm of sleep.
We vessals of pain
Needing rightness of spirit
Cleanse me. Restore joy.
Trees like bundled souls
Rooted break the blowing winds.
Strong Community.
One of the excercise the facilitator gave us was to burn notes that we composed in a huge fire roaring in the hearth warming the room. These notes represented things in our personal backpacks that were a burden to carry around. I found this to be a very emotional exercise. How do you unload things like fear of failure, or rejection or feelings of inadequacy? How do I rid myself once and for all of the obstacles that hold me back. Yes they are imaginary but still they feel real. I suppose I have enough fuel for a bon fire.
Sacrificed failures
Fires flame devours all.
Dust and ashes, gone.
Shhh, wake not the voice
It clutters the mind with thoughts
Lay low in silence
Dare we define our possibilities based on our limitations? Why would you let what ever happened in
the past evaluate you now. God does not evaluate us this way. Yahweh wants to move us forward. Paula Montovany.